Nothing To Big For God
Jeremiah 32:26-27 Then the word of the LORD came to Jeremiah:Behold, I am the LORD, the God of all flesh: is there any thing too hard for me?
Matthew 19:26 Jesus looked at them and said, “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.”
SHOCK
Nothing had prepared me for what I would witness as I walked into the ICU unit. NOTHING! How could this be? What had I missed? Why, God? It looked hopeless. Small, frail, in excruciating pain, breathing shallow, confused, lashing out verbally, (heavily medicated) pale as a ghost, curled into a fetal position, in shock, and at the edge of the precipice of hell and death according to the monitors recording signs of life. I feared ARDS (acute respiratory distress syndrome due to sepsis) with good reason!
The gravity of the situation did not escape me. A God size miracle was required. My emotions were so raw my mind could not even form a complete sentence in prayer. Tears welled and spilled. I felt the enemy’s hands tighten around my neck and I could hardly breathe……….
AWE
The scripture from Romans 8:26-27 came softly creeping into my thoughts: Likewise the Spirit also helpeth our infirmities: for we know not what we should pray for as we ought: but the Spirit itself maketh intercession for us with groanings which cannot be uttered. Yep, I needed the Spirit within me to do all the interceding for I was speechless, numb, and without a clue of where my prayer should begin. I was weary, and the groaning of my heart did not have an adequate vocabulary.
Surrender
Have you ever been to this place? This is the place of surrender. When the flood of reality sweeps over you and you know ONLY GOD can turn this situation around and if He does not, it will be the beginning of the end. I have been here before: more than once. The experience NEVER improves. No control. No wisdom. No words. Just the inability to breathe. But God……
Here is where our God steps in and does the impossible. He rewires a brain. He breaks a chain. He raises the dead. He humbles. He restores. He heals. He redeems. He breathes new life into a soul. He shows THERE IS NOTHING TO BIG OR HARD FOR HIM!
Hope
As I robotically lived through the next days, these were the verses used to infuse hope into my veins flowing with doubt and fear. I exhaled. I was able to move forward despite the fact nothing I say or do would change anything. I opened my hands and gave all into His mighty hands. My question is rephrased. No longer, “Why God?” It is now, “What are You doing for my good and Your glory in this and every situation?”
Father, let us hear the words:
Well Done by The Afters
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X29hPMgKUyM
Because we had faith enough to trust Your heart when we could not see Your mighty hand working on our behalf. This is our humble prayer. In Jesus name, let it be so.
https://www.treadingwatertiljesuscomes.com/2018/07/06/20-sheltered-in-the-arms-of-love/
I am sure many will relate to this testimony. Few have the words to describe the pain and horror. Sharing this gut wrenching experience gives others hope in our Lord as you shared your surrender. May God bless you with peace, joy and strength. May he heal your loved ones. 🙏